Pessimism

The dictionary definition of pessism is pes-si-mism n. A tendency to stress the negative or unfavorable or to take the gloomiest possible view. However, as a real life example, I would like to point out something that happened to me today. I was at an awards ceremony, and managed to get second place in something. However, instead of seeingthe bright side of things and being happy with what I had, I spent the next half-hour thinking on the fact that if I had scored another 3 tenths of a point higher, I would have gotten first place.

But on to other things. It really is quite an interesting experience to feel yourself slowly slipping. I have been slowly going into sleep deficit or becoming overly stressed or something. By slowly, I mean it is a sort of 1 step forward, 3 steps back, except even more incremental, to the point of 8 steps forward, 8 and 1/2 steps back. I find myself becoming slower and more clumsy ( not that I was ever agile), and even though I was never socially adept, I find myself becoming completely socially inept. Also affected is spot desicion making and general intelligence. Even though I take a while to make decisions, I still occasionally make wrong ones.

Anyways, enough about that. Until next time, farewell....